Monday, April 30, 2012

Treading Water

I am not a swimmer, so the fact that I use the above title to describe how I feel right now is no coincidence. My health is doing better physically, but mentally, I feel on the edge all. of. the. time. I wait for the wave that is going to come rushing over my head; I wait to feel myself pulled under in the undertow; I wait to feel so tired, I just stop trying.

MIL has me doing Spring Cleaning. She pronounced that she wanted to get it done, which means I have to get it done. I have been tackling it little by little, but there is a long, long way to go.

We had a gathering this weekend of family and friends. We had planned to do a cookout back when the weather was in the 80's in February, figuring surely the last weekend before May would be nice enough to cook and eat outside. Stupid mortals...

Of course, it was ridiculously cold and rainy, and we had to move the party indoors.  We did karaoke, which was fun for about two hours, then I couldn't wait for it to get over with. I was tired. Bud was tired.

The reason we were so tired was all the pre-party work that went into it.  Had to clean and rearrange the living room to make space for the karaoke equipment. I had to make all the accompanying food to go with the burgers I was cooking on the grill. MIL was calling people for three day to make sure they were still coming and assuring them it was still on, rain or shine.

Back to Spring Cleaning. Part of the cleaning is the storage room, which is a mess.  It happens to be where our life is right now, packed away in boxes. She wants it cleaned out and organized. I don't mind, but it was hard to get at with our karaoke equipment in there as well. Since we had pulled all our karaoke equipment out for the party, I asked if we could leave it set up in the living room a few days so we could tackle the storage room. She said it was okay, but then the day after the party, she announces she wants the equipment out of the living room.

Sooooooo, Bud and I have to scramble and try and get the storage room cleaned and organized and get the equipment out of the living room today. It is an enormous task that should really be tackled over several days, but we have to somehow pull it off today, or MIL will get beyond moody. When she wants something done, it needs to be done, NOW.

I think I need swimming lessons.


  1. Too much on your plate, I'm afraid, and too little joy. Same here. I don't think I can ever get even caught up here. Ron was in hospitals until mid April then out for a week and back in, and home, and back 4 days later. Home again. Set us up for palliative care but they don't provide any care, so forget that. I also need some joy, a couple of days off. But can't get it. I was supposed to take him to Dr. Friday but he fell Friday night and too sore to go. I'm totally out of it. Perhaps we should book a weekend at a resort or a doomsday shelter. We means you and me, and this is Border Collie, for some reason it didn't post as that.

  2. I hate when people say ok and then change their minds!! Ugh! Poor D you need some relaxation for a change. Don't laugh but swimming is very relaxing. :) I hope things improve for you very soon.

  3. Thanks BC and New#3 for the positive energy. I apologize for being so down lately--I hate spouting doom and gloom all the time.


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